A lot of things happened to me this past few days. And did I mention that they were bad things? As in BAAAAAAAAAD! I don’t want to get into details. Basta masaklap. But good thing I learned how to cope up with these kind of things. And I want to share it with you guys. :)
What made me post this entry? Because there was a loss of something. I didn’t cry or whatever. I just hated myself that I let it happened. But who knows that it will happen? I am weary and often nervous. Di ako mapakali. There comes to a point that all I want is to scream very loud but I’m at our dorm. I can’t be that noisy or else. So, I just keep quiet and make myself busy with our thesis and other activities. I guess I’m just an introvert like that. I want to slap, punch or just hurt someone for the sake that there will an outlet of my misery/ depression or whatever you want to call it.
But then, these happenings are a part of life. I once asked a friend our convo goes like this:
PAT: Anne, pag may mga masasamang bagay ba na nangyayari sa iyo, plano pa rin ba ni Lord yun?
PAT: Bakit? I mean, especially sa mga hirap sa buhay.
ANNE: Ginawa Niya yun kasi lahat ng nangyayari sa atin, in the end, Siya pa rin yung mago-glorify. It’s up to us kung paano tayo mag-deal sa ganun.
PAT: Paano Siya mago-glorify? Kasi di ba hindi naman maiwasan na mag-question kung bakit nangyayari sa atin yung ganun di ba? Pero alam naman natin na masama yun.
ANNE: Ang isipin mo na lang, may mga tao na mas grabe pa ang pinagdadaanan kesa sa atin. Gaya na lang ni Job. Nawala yung mga properties nya, yung mga anak nya, yung asawa nya, nanghina sya pero hindi pa rin siya nag-curse or nagcommit ng sin.
I will always remember that convo of ours. So when I looked that verse in the Bible (Job 1:13-22) as my devotion. I was relieved when I read it. And it also helped me to realize that I don’t have the right to rant about what I’m going/ gone through. Because God promised, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” - Jeremiah 29:11. All we have to do is to have faith and trust that He will never neglect us.